If only you knew...

If only you knew
what you meant to me;
what I had gone through;
what I was ready to see.

If only you knew
how my heart jumped a beat;
how my smile shaped itself;
how It was you I wished to meet.

We promised to stay
in touch every day
to discuss what you did,
what I did that day.

Guess it was easy to plan
for we were friends then;
how mistaken we were
or we didn’t understand.

It’s hard to let go
those memories we made,
those feelings we had,
that we never knew would fade.

I never knew I’d doubt
whatever you say
“I miss you” you type
“I think so” you mean.

If only you knew
I need you right now;
way more than you think,
way more than I show. 

If only you knew.